We’re celebrating the end of three long, hard weeks of a liquid diet for Emma Grace. We’re on a soft food diet for a couple of weeks while the tissue continues to heal before we go back to a regular diet. Unfortunately, we’re not celebrating a successful surgery. 

Everyday Emma has a huge smile on her face as she walks to the car. She’s such a happy kid. Yesterday I had a huge grin on my face because, hello- two days of school left! However, as she walked to the car, my smiling face was met with a deep stare. The first thing I thought was, “Oh no, did she bomb one of her finals?” As soon as she got in the car, she said: “The hole is open”. I immediately felt a bowling ball in my stomach “What? How do you know?” Tears were streaming down her face. “Because I looked in the mirror.” I pulled over as quickly as I could, made her open her mouth wide, and sure enough, my heart sunk and now tears were streaming down my face.

It’s been a long three weeks of frustration, nausea, nosebleeds, anger, and even more frustration. We did everything right…no straws, no utensils, and only liquids. We can’t make sense of it.

I know that nothing is wasted in Gods economy, not even 3 weeks of a liquid diet, so He will certainly use all of whatever this is. What I do know is that she is growing more resilient by the day, and that will most certainly be used in her future. So as we sit in this puddle of disappointment we try to rejoice in the suffering.

Continue praying for my girls heart and for her to trust whatever comes next.

Now we eat cake!